石林見清天

下了幾天雨，星期一天色晴朗。在下午時份走過平台，剛巧有帶相機，由不得按幾下快門。






今晨下大雨，之後天晴。見到防高空擲物的安全網？

When you feel bored...

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No, no and yes

Tuesdays with Morrie: NO
Abraham's tears: NO
Money-line: YES

Two things I didn't know until today:

1. Drama tix go fast. Need to book much in advance next time.
2. It's not wired transfer. It's not money order. It doesn't cost a single penny. It's called money-line!

死裡逃生

真實案例

愛得了誰？

海歸電池回家途中往Apita買明天的早餐。有不少男士在路旁那些十四、廿四吋的電視機前面對著《溏心》凝神。九時多的太古城仍有不少人在商場裡逛。隨著少女和夫婦的腳步，繞過放麵包架，發現剩下的款式並不特別吸引，只揀了兩個吞拿魚包。盛惠十三蚊丫。回頭便跟在一對母女的後面。小女孩雙肩使勁的左右搖擺。

走在街上，前方同途的一位四十至五十多的女士，兩手抽著幾個載得滿滿的背心袋。一個人加上雙手拿著的東西，我從後面也看得出她手指的關節被重壓。對一位年輕力壯的人來說也頗吃力。

半分鐘後，看見地上燈柱旁有幾塊吃得乾淨的芒果皮。前面廿米左右有個垃圾桶。

　　＊　　＊　　＊

我想：天父的國裡正是這樣的孩子。如何在＿＿裡活得像她那樣天真呢？

我想：上前去幫助她好嗎？卻怕晚黑時份的海歸電池相貌嚇人，反幫倒忙。

我想：回頭把它們清理好嗎？卻怕叫別人為此失去了工作。又想到這麼晚也沒有人來清理，更不會影響到別人生計吧...可是，這樣想著想著便走遠了。

最後，我又可是個值得去揀的麵包嗎？你呢？

回來的意義

我會盡力盡力守候盡力以祈禱代替在你面前說話。只顧用力飛啊！

當＿＿成為了生活

好吃的糖果
　　　吃多了
　　覺膩

　　　　　　　　優美的旋律
　　　　　　聽多了
　　　成為噪音

　　　驚喜
　　當不再奢侈
　如雪糕溶化

　　　沒有冷氣的生活
　　是個失敗嗎？

有人說：感受是一場無止境的比賽
　沒有進的話便只有退

有人說：真正的不變只在神裡面
　　感受在地上發旺
　　　　人的心也只有不斷尋找更深切的感覺

神說：祂要活在信祂的人心中
　　　　那人的心
　　緃然在這世上
　　　　　　卻是天國

祂的慈愛永不止息
　　信祂的便不再
　　　因生活而不斷尋找
　美味的糖果　他吃得快樂
　　優美的旋律　他聽得安泰
因為神給他的一切　他必感恩
　　多得的必與他人同享
　　　他也感謝別人所得的
　因為他的心得神的安慰

願活在這世上
　　知道祂造我的心意
　　　　在哪裡
　　　　　　　　　也為祂微笑

溝通三部曲

與兩位大大共進晚飯之事，實不用我多談。之後，獲《聖經教我人際關係》一書，才恍然大悟。原來不但是個「社交低Ｂ兒」，還是個「創傷後異常症」患者。以下乃書中秘方「溝通三部曲」：

紅燈=靜候/聆聽
黃燈=協調/寄取
綠燈=共識/雙贏

倪大大、林大大，小人當盡力改善己身。望下次一切都有個一百八十度的改變，有怪莫怪！

我紅燈你便綠燈

不用每秒貼近
 有時濕氣過重
  有默契有話題
   片刻要喝一口
留下一點空間
 青草上大字攤
  靜聽花木無聲
   任風飄流往返
空間不同空洞
 有思想有美夢
  放眼飛鳥天空
   手肘自在輕鬆
減少粗製濫造
 微距不可過度
  主你我三人行
   以祂作腳前燈
靈裡禱告勉勵
 感情更親更深
  無論多想走近
   不忘祈禱等候
皆因祂始聚頭
 萬事有其時候
  主內彼此祝福
   必蒙看守保佑

It was Mother's Day

In the morning before Sunday service, went to a market and got a couple of boxed carnations for both my mom and my brother's wife.

After Sunday service, rushed to New Star restaurant in Causeway Bay to join my family for dim sum. Everyone there was in a hurry so the service was poor. The only good thing was that it wasn't that expensive on such an occasion. Everyone headed their own ways ran out of the restaurant. Used a coupon to get a free bottle of fish oil. Then got a call from mom--it appeared that mom needed some company. Thus, headed back home only to find that she already went out with my little sister.

Headed down to join them in the supermarket. Sat down at Pokka cafe for an cup of afternoon tea and listened to her old stories once more. And it made me wonder--can we go ahead in our remaining days like when we were young? I want to remain forward-looking when I get old and play the latest games with my grand kids rather than repeating the same old stories to them. May God enlighten me today how I may live with vigor and cheers till the day my body returns to the earth.

We got a much delayed delivery of a new dining table before we headed out to Happy Valley for dinner. It has been 10+ years since we last visited this restaurant. Like before, it offered free juices. We ordered baked lobster with cream, a big fish and a couple other dishes. The lobster tasted really good but the rest were quite salty. Maybe it had to do too much OJ mixing with the cream, I ended up with a tummy ache. The bill was not cheap at all but still much more manageable then going to a buffet.

As our party couldn't fit just one taxicab, I took a walk to my sisters and brother around the horse-racing field to the nearest MTR station. My sisters went many meters ahead of me and my brother. Was it a sign of lack of communications? Was it a sign of lack of openness or love? Was it just because that's our comfort zone even among our family members? This is unchanged from many years ago. How can we break through? I know before anyone else I need to be the one to open up and to truly care and love my family. May Jesus forgive and help me overcome my selfishness and pride.

There were a couple of interesting incidents that I want to add:

• These days my parents are used to seeing my thanksgiving prayer before meals. Now when I forget to say my thanks, my mom would remind me about it-- Isn't it amazing? May the Lord keep me both steadfast and gentle among my family.
• But don't be happy too fast... the other night my mom also tried to show me how well my nephew could bow to the Taoist altar at home. The good side of things is that my parents already gave up asking me to do the same.

Breakdown--thoughts from the lunatic

This is another crazy post I write to myself. As always my crazy posts allow those who truly loves and cares about this person to peek into his crazy mind. They are not for those who are just curious or interested in learning what another person thinks deep in his mind. I call the latter kind of people exploiters.


Sit tight. The journey starts right now...

The book "How to deal with emotionally explosive people" I grabbed off my sister's bookshelf says:

Though irrational, emotional explosions still have a logic of their own. They are usually attempts to get something--relief, safety, or perhaps revenge.

In my case, it was none of those that I was trying to get, through relief would be something nice to have. Can I make sure it is not some form of self-manipulation to submit myself to guilts? The only thing I am sure of is the need for Holy Spirit to deliver me from shame and transgressions. No matter how many times feeling guilty won't help me get over them. One may choose to ignore these overwhelming thoughts but it's not in any mortal's blood the ability to save himself from them. Here I can only conjure up all my faith to wait for His deliverance.

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Another part of me says there must be a good number of people freaking out when hearing the word "breakdown". It would be instantly linked to other words like "dysfunctional", "high maintenance", "unstable" and "loser". That part of my mind would believe that such kind of people, assuming they exist, would only create an image of how successful they are in front of the others and would not publicly admit their own flaws. It is such a strong urge to break up the tie with such kind of people (assuming they exist). I hope I never presumptously draw any impressions on others. I hope that I won't label them no matter how much they would act just like that, because the moment I label them, hatred and sin would have already entered my blood and soul. The guilt of wrongful assumption is already with me, so I am just one step away from becoming exactly those people I dislike.

Jesus let us live in the world so I don't think severing human ties is the best thing to do. His peace is not like peace of any other kind from this world. Only with His Holy Spirit may we keep our minds and hands clean (and sane). I shall constantly remind myself to keep my words few and wait for His deliverance in faith.

BTW, I don't think exposing one's own thoughts and therefore weaknesses is necessarily a bad thing to do. While exploiters may take advantage of me, I must openly discuss these issues with myself to come to a new understanding. The fact that the others couldn't find anything despicable in the life of Daniel (see the book of Daniel) suggests to me that there is hope to live a completely godly life. And I don't believe we can reach that point without dissecting our thoughts and to have an adventure along with God's Word into the richness of our minds. Friends, may I request your prayers to help me come to convergence with the Word of God. Amen.

今晚也聽得見嗎？

可以的話，我的心頭大石便能放下。
不可以的話，我更敬畏主萬有的神。

睡得著嗎？

Your Dan Dan

A collection of memories about a person who acquired his nickname Dan Dan in Seattle five years ago. These are your memories. He was your Dan Dan. As his spokeman, I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for all the precious moments we shared, good and bad alike. Most likely Dan Dan will evolve in his new environment into someone different but I pray that he won't ever forget those five years with you. I request your prayer when my name crosses your mind for never letting go of His hand.

Dandan 1 2

．再見　．

Auld Lang Syne

2002 vs 2007

Farewell Dan Dan

回來了

If you read till this line, I wanna thank you for bearing with me for such a long time. Moreover, hereby I apologize to my Vancouver friends for not doing enough to keep in touch and for having never posted any personal pics on my blogs. Many times I put only my best foot forward and hid much away from you. Sorry for not being frank enough, keeping part of my life away from you. I deserve to be called a deceiver. Here I hope you may take a better peek into my life in the last few years from the eyes of the others. This was still not my full life but this was pretty much all the selfish heart in me would let me do right now.